Friday, October 18, 2013

Month Five

Every time baby boy wears this onesie it makes me laugh a little because he is far from being wild! Our Bubba is a calm little guy who loves his sleep. I am continually thankful for the full nights rest we all receive and that our boy is healthy and just pretty much wonderful:) Now that he has been with us for five months it feels like he has always been in our family. We never really went through any major adjustments with him joining us, it has been a very natural change in our lives with no disruptions. I will say that this past month I have dealt with some hardships that have come about because of the way the foster care system works. There have been moments when I feel helpless and unimportant. Being a foster parents does not give me a say in what I think is best for him and that is really hard. My place is to give him the love he needs but at times you wish there was more you could do. Not knowing what his future holds and not always being able to be the one who makes sure he is safe is not a natural thing for a parent. I have to let go, and this is possibly what I am suppose to be learning throughout this process. I have to pray, I have to trust, I have to forgive, and most of all I have to love. I have to be in the Bible in order to keep my sanity, if I don't I lose sight of why I am doing this crazy thing:) It is a wild ride but it's also one that is making me become more mature and keeping my perspective on why I am here in the first place. 

I recently finished a book that contained a prayer attributed to St. Francis. It stuck out to me so much and since the first time I read it I have gone back to it almost every day and made it my prayer. I want to become a person who lives it...

"Lord, make us instruments of your peace. Where there is hatred, let us sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is discord, union; where there is doubt, faith; where their is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy. Grant that we may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen."

I am glad that I get my camera out every now and then because these pictures are so precious to me.

Baby boy loves to look at himself in the mirror when he plays on his mat. He can now move himself downward when he is on his back and it doesn't take long for him to wiggle completely off the mat after I put him down.

He is definitely rockin the back of the head bald spot:) Once he starts sitting up and rolling over more it should begin to fade like my daughter's did. 

This is Bubba's way of telling us he is content, feet crossed and relaxed. And just look at those thighs:) He is one good eater and we are looking forward to starting him on solids next month. That is always a fun moment to capture with the facial expressions babies make when they try new foods. Those are pictures we will have to keep for ourselves but you will surely hear all about it!

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